D. H. Lawrence: "Ada kehangatan amarah di frasa terakhirnya. Dia berar...

"Ada kehangatan amarah di frasa terakhirnya. Dia berarti dia mencintainya lebih daripada dia. Mungkin dia tidak bisa mencintainya. Mungkin dia tidak memiliki apa yang diinginkannya dalam dirinya. Itu adalah motif terdalam jiwanya, ketidakpercayaan diri ini. Begitu dalam sehingga dia tidak berani menyadari atau mengakui. Mungkin dia kurang. Seperti rasa malu yang sangat halus, itu membuatnya selalu kembali. Jika demikian, dia akan melakukannya tanpa dia. Dia tidak akan pernah membiarkan dirinya menginginkannya. Dia hanya akan melihat."

--- D. H. Lawrence

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There was a warmth of fury in his last phrases. He meant she loved him more than he her. Perhaps he could not love her. Perhaps she had not in herself that which he wanted. It was the deepest motive of her soul, this self-mistrust. It was so deep she dared neither realise nor acknowledge. Perhaps she was deficient. Like an infinitely subtle shame, it kept her always back. If it were so, she would do without him. She would never let herself want him. She would merely see.